Because

I've given up on the chances of anything or anyone ever making me happy.

The only people that I don't hold at a distance are the ones that hurt me the most. I'm forgetting what everyone has ever told me about family. or about love. And I'm forgetting that I ever wanted more from you.

One day I'll leave all of this behind. and everyone will regret that they didn't hold on when they had a chance.

I have discovered so many new lows.