How will I put this lightly?

I'm angry at you. And have been for what must be a decade. But I love you. And I've loved you for the entirirty of my life.

I resent you now. but I will not later.

And for the the life of me I cannot distance myself from you for even a day. Even a day.

But I doubt you ever miss me. And you probably only think of me in some overarching coddling checking in sort of way. And I think that's ok, now. But it might not be later.

As of recent I've learned of jealousy with you. being jealous of someone else having you. I understand it and console myself that they are passing trends. But I will be here for the duration.

We'll always be best friends and you'll always be my sister. And sometimes I'm afraid you'll also always be the one with the ability to hurt me.