Displaced.

I don't really know what to say. I feel at a distance from words. wish instead I could make videos, dances, songs, and pictures to depict my life.

In an attempt to ground myself from my currently chaotic life I write these sentances not sure if they are truly what happened and how long ago they were.

Last tuesday I didn't go to school. It displaced my entire week. Wednesday is gone from my memory completely. Thursday I went to school all day. from 6:30 inthe morning to arrive home at 7:30 at night. I think thursday I gave a presentation on Fanon. But that could have been last thursday. Like I said, It's all lost to me now...

Thursday evening I picked up Adam at 11 in South city. We drove to San Mateo. Stayed the night there. Vicky and Grace went out to a bar, we stayed home eating and doing homework. They got back and we talked all night. To bed at 3.

Friday we woke up at 6 (3 hours sleep) to get picked up by the taxi to go to the airport. 5 hour flight. did homework. slept most of the way. Woke up in Hawaii at 11 in the morning.

We trecked through the airport (I in my post 4 hour nap haze) to find Vicky's friend. We rode a tram, I smiled at all the people that passed, they would smile back, once their back was to me, I'd stick my tounge out at them. That's the kind of mood I was in. I also didn't get why all 4 of us had to go looking for 1 person, when she could have come looking for us. It took awhile to find the shuttle to the house. WE did. His name was William. Sweet, funny turn of phrase, we all liked him but he turned out to be the butt of all jokes of the weekend. In the least offensive way possible? I don't remember what we did after we got to the house...

We ate at cheesecake factory ( I know) and went to the International Market. Walked around Waikiki. Bought new Sunglasses at Guess. Went home and barbequed. Vicky's friend slept through dinner, the rest of us battled jet lag. Ate dinner, good conversations to follow, then pool. I think I tried to do homework. Asleep at 1 o clock (I thinkish).

Saturday woke up at around 8. We... Uhm... Oh! I know! We went to Blow hole quickly then to Hanauma bay. Stayed most of the day there. Went home for showers. Walked around Waikiki, Kings village and such, the beach at sunset. Dinner at a Japanese noodle house type. Home to change. Out clubbing. Danced for a little while. went to 1 gross club. very crowded. very sweaty. a littl smelly. Everyone there 50+. Some dancing in cages. Very strannnnnge experience. Second place at the top of a hotel. Very small, few people dancing. Closed my eyes, tried to make the most of it. Raining on our way home, Vicky and I ran and played in the rain. Home, showered, and asleep by 2ish, possibly 3ish.

Sunday up around 8. Pearl Harbor. Dole Plantation. Then the Beach at Waiamea Falls. Secret parking spot. Raelly deep water. Rained a little, didn't phase beach goers. PLaying in the sand, Homework on the beach, Jumping in the water. Drive home. Gyu-Kaku for dinner. Had various meat, tofu salad, roasted seaweed, and mochi with red bean ice cream for dessert. Dave and Busters. Many games, thousands of tickets, pointless prizes. Home for cleaning, showering and sleep at 2ish.

Monday morning, woke up early to make breakfast. A LOT of food. made to feed an army? A lot of cleaning of the house. Leslie leaves first. We clean and pack. Shuttle comes for us at 11:15. Rushing to and through the airport. Lost my dramamine, had to buy a new one. Our seats were next to each other without too much trouble, Grace and vicky only a couple of rows away this time. Slept for a little less than half the flight. Airplane food, packed fried rice snack that I made, candy. Still hungry. Watched the Great Debaters. Landed at around 9:30 I think. Adam's dad picked us up. Stopped to say hello to his parents. Adam drove us to San mateo. Late dinner at the Chinese Restaurant. Too tired to go home, stay the night at my sisters. Adam went home for homework. Talking, tossing and turning, can't sleep. Asleep by 3ish.

Tuesday was supposed to do homework and get ready by 5:45. Slept in, didn't go to early classes. Realized at 10 o'clock I set my alarm but never turned it on. Got dressed, went to school. STudied a little, took my midterm, complete with incredibly strict security measures. 10 multiple choice and true/false, 10 short answer, 1 long essay. Hope I did ok. WEnt to Linguistics. Very bored and uninterested, like usual. Feel like Linguistics is a very biased eurocentric sort of studying, or at least, our class is. Getting VERY sick of hearing only of how great europe is and the words incorrect, illogical, badly worded, and other such words in reference to anything non-white. It's a strange experience I wouldn't have minded a couple of years ago. But now it feels ridiculous and exclusionary. Feel Alone... Met with Debate group. Worried about their inability to plan a speech. They say many off topic ideas, create a list of "quips." Worried how well they'll do. Brush it off, I'll handle my part, they do theirs. Their inadequecy isn't my problem. Home by 8:30ish. Very tired. Very hungry. Eat, bicker with my dad. Fight with Adam. Asleep by 10. Wake up at 2, feel disoriented and alone. Go back to sleep. Dream of Aurora Borealis.

Wednesday, wake up at 10. Homework, organization of the group notes. organize and post all weekend pictures. Feel behind on anything internet related, even friendships. Lunch with Adam, homework, work on speech. Now Blogging.

Later will go to dinner with grace and vicky. Don't know what else.

Time feels nonexistant. Only The Rush of Things.