Small Town Girl

In a day, at the office, I'd say we get far more non-calls than actual calls. A non-call is when there's no one on the line.

In a day, at the office, I can watch more youtube videos, read more tabloid blogs, read more magazines and movie/music reviews, and update my blog more often than I can do work.

I still feel productive.

Have you ever felt like you were in a slump in life? cause you worked at a dead end job filled with dead end people doing dead end tasks? That were high high stress level, barely livable wage, and imprisoning you with guilt? And on top of all of that, you lived and fought constantly with your parents (like you're in high school again), did nothing worth living for in the evenings (like high school again), and complained about your life every second (like high school again)? Have you ever hated your life and your job every day for a month and made a list of all the things you want to buy to console yourself? Only not to be paid, again, and put your bank account even further into the negative?

I really don't feel productive.

I feel like I'm getting old. Like time is flying by and I'm not keeping up. Where do the days go?

Every day I've woken up thinking it was a different day that it's been. Monday, I thought should be sunday. Tuesday I thought it was wednesday, wednesday I thought it was thursday. And this morning (and still right now, actually) I feel like it really truly is friday.

What am I doing today? What am I doing tomorrow? I'm so sick of coming to work here. I'm so sick of bringing family life to work life and work life to family life. I'm so sick of being guilted to work every day and not paid.

I feel like a townie. The one thing I didn't want to be my whole life.