Just so we're on the same page...

Looking for a living wage sucks.
Wasted potential totally sucks.
Short sticks, ends meat, and pay day to pay day sucks.

Other things that suck in no particular order
Being suckered
Needing sleep
Being the bigger person
Having it rubbed in your face
Being grumpy when you don't want to be
Getting lazier when you shouldn't be
Worrying about life in general
Trying to work a full schedule
Being forced to work around everyone elses schedule
commitment sometimes
non commitment othertimes
Forced patience
sore body
Boring music
Mysterious smell that I can't find the source of
smell that persists
Chronic hives
No, make that chronic health problems
crazy crazy frizzy hair
spending money
saving money
money in general
my mood, in general.

Good news:

After masses of bloodwork with relatively no help, the facing of a needle fear and the urge to cry when punctured I've been reassured that:
I have a normal thyroid
I'm not anemic
I don't have Hep C.
I don't have syphilis
I did have a normal pap smear
My bad and good cholesterol , tryglyceride, and chol to HDL ratio are all within normal healthy range.
AAANNDDD
I don't have diabetes or high blood pressure therefore my statistical risk of having a heart attack in the next 10 years is only 1%. Compared to the average risk of other people my age who have a 4% risk, I'm doing pretty well....

SO BASICALLY: the good news is that contrary to the chronic hives, swelling, and burning pain in my fingers, I'm pretty damn healthy. (at least according to my blood and vagina.)

SO BASICALLY: the good news is that the doctors still don't know what's wrong with me and I have to waste even more time and money on trying to figure it out.

Something was missing... Like salt.

Uhm....  Dear Adam,

Maybe you should buy me a home like this one:

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By architect Rachel Allen (S.L.A.) as found through designspongeonline.com (my newest linking fave)

Ughhkkkkk. Beautiful houses make my stomach hurt. I love the idea of sun and open windows and open homes and clean line. :sigh:

Has anyone watched Vicky Cristina Barcelona yet? It came out yesterday. I disapprove.

Javier Bardem and Penelope Cruz were undeniably sexy. Rachel hall gave me the feeling of an American poor man's Kate beckinsale. And Scar.Jo. is the same as ALWAYS.

It felt stagnant. The characters were relatively flat to me. It tried to be comedic... I think.

It was a well developed character study, I will say. Although maybe not enough to make a movie. 5 or so relatively good characters, everyone thought out. But so little story element.

The narration became SO overplayed.

It made me walk away wishing I were filthy rich and could waste my life away on vacation. Oh spain, how you pull upon my heartstrings.

Something tells me that staying up till 2 in the morning watching youtube videos of the dog whisperer is not only incredibly abnormal but also quite unhealthy...

But how can you not love cesar milan? What? His borderline abuse techniques? Nooo. Maybe the world is just lucky that he turned his energies to training dogs rather than taking over the world like a certain mustachioed historical figure I'm certain we've all hailed--

heard of before.

On other hands, anyone else following the olympics? I'm all about swimming and gymnastics.

I don't care who calls michael phelps cocky. He has a right to be. He's a rock star. Have you googled the wingspan on him??

And it should totally be GIRLS gymnastics. They are all 15 and 16, afterall. And is anyone else dissapointed in the amount of times they mess up? Maybe I'm idealizing but i remember that girls used to be able to turn in flawless routines. Not anymore

As it were, it seems I hate to have dirty hands, even worse, dry hands.

I also hate sleeping apparently.

I have decided that contact solution is a waste of money and I need to start buying generic.

Claritin has also lived out its utility for me as the swelling and hives often persist. I think I've decided that theres some sort of disease wrong with me, even if we haven't gotten blood work results in yet.

Oh, and procastinators never prosper. Unemployment can kiss my ass cause actively looking for and finding a job has no deadline I have to meet. Only the impending balance of my bank account. How does one create savings when they're paid so little they're living paycheck to paycheck? Must answer that one soon.

Until then, don't forget:

Vacaville is far, relationships stretch farther.
Boys must eventually become men and the clinging to ones youth is sad.

And

Love outlasts even ocho tostadas

Beautiful Things

Things that I love:

These fabulous, horribly overpriced pants that I'll never own from anthropologie.

More Anthropologie...

This beautiful bathroom from designspongeonline.com sneak peak into designer Nancy Lendvend's home with handpainted tiles and that beautiful window. I'm a sucker for beautiful windows.

Pink Guatamalan kids hammock from lamadesigns.com. b e a u t i f u l. (too bad its kid sized)

These hand painted floor's by Lena Corwin from Designspongeonline.com's pattern contest




T-straps. awesome shoes. from anthropologie... I need a job...

My new blogger profile picture is very porn-orific, I've been told.

I thought it was more little mermaid-esque con a brown twist.

Can't you hear me calling? S.O.S.

I've been on blogging hiatus for two weeks... I actually think I miss it, how silly.

On break from blogging because there's been too much in my life I've wanted to run away from. Why would I discuss and document series of events I'd much rather forget about?

I've realized I may be a hard person to get to know. I want to be apart of other people's lives and never allow them into mine. Outisde of my very small cirlce (my sister and adam) I haven't told anyone the slightest bit of whats been going on. That makes it sound so much more dramatic than it probably is.

Sometimes I wonder why I'm like "this," but it doesn't really surprise me. Maybe it's genetic.

I want to hop on a plane to Italy. I want to walk warm streets in new places. I want to live in a room that's incredibly small, well decorated, and absolutely mine. Isn't that a nice thought?

I have a lot of pictures I should update with but haven't. Hopefully in the enxt handful of days I can get caught up. Here's what should go up.

1. Tsunami pictures
2. Zoey pictures
3. Zoo pictures

Now, tomorrow? Interview and doctor's appointment. Oh, the joy.

Trying to figure out mobile blogging...