When you're at the mercy of your own brain's whims, pains, throbs and aches the only thing I can muster is, "why is this happening? What did I do?"

I feel some sort of mild hopelessness being victim to my own body. The swelling and burning and itching of the hives. The bruised feeling all over my body, not being able to move the itching is so intense.

And now migraines? This is the first time it hasn't been able to be "slept off" but it doesn't mean it's the first time. I can easily say I've had at least 5 in the last month.

Is it stress? Is it some unknown allergy? Or is whatever has plagued me the past three years only intensifying?

Why is this happening to me? What have I done?