Stuck

This will come as no surprise but, I feel as if I live and am sometimes stuck in a crazy dream world.

Every night, often times 2 or 3 times a night, I have long, intense, vivid dreams. Almost all details are clear and nothing makes sense.

I usually wake up feeling drained, tired, anxious, or even afraid. Sorry for what's gone on or angry.

My dreams too often translate to real life. Where I'm walking as if in some sort of haze and the only thing I can think about are the impossible happenings of my sleep.

I have dark circles under my eyes and all of my rest isn't restful.

Last night I had a dream that all my older siblings were tiny little kids (the way I see them in really old pictures) being beaten by my father (keeping in mind that my dad has never even been close to abusive in any way) and I was the only adult, begging and crying to try and save them and stop him from beating them. I had another dream that I was trying to sew this scary scarecrow while a teacher yelled in the background and somehow, the fate of my family depending on the completion of it.

The other day I had a dream that I was stabbing a man to death with a reed like big piece of grass after accidentally killing a man with icicles.

I either need to stop watching crime shows, stop reading the news, stop taking my hive meds, or just take a chill pill.