Anyone Hiring?

I've been neglecting my blog. It's partially because I'm frustrated with my mobile blogging. Partially cause I'm not doing anything in life.

I tell myself to stop panicking and stop letting it get me down. I mean, I've only been done with school for one full week. But I feel like it's one week wasted. I feel like a dead beat bum. I'm the kind of person with really high expectations of myself. And right now, I'm disappointing all of them.

And at the same time, it's something kind of out of my control. I can revise and rewrite my resume as many times as I want, perfect each individually written cover letter all I want. But the choice isn't up to me. It isn't like school where as long as you do everything required of you, you reach your goal. This is up to the people hiring, and up to the economy, and up to pretty much everyone but me. Which sucks. which means I feel helpless!

And there are few feelings I hate more than helplessness. It's a waiting game. It's a test of my patience. It's a show of my will power to stay determined, ambitious, and driven.

But I am very easily discouraged... I always have been... How does a newly graduated college student with little to no idea what she wants to be now that she's grown up find a job?