3 Month Eval

So, it's mid May, approximately 3 months since I finished with school. I've sent out more resumes than I can begin to count and have had two interviews. Still unemployed. I've taken the really big step back of part-timing it at my parent's office.

Here's a list of pros and cons

Pros:

• Money is money and work is work. I need money. I need work.
• My parents REALLY need the help at the office and can't really afford to hire someone else.
• It's LIKE I have a job because I get paid (sans tax), make my own hours (aka sleep in till 11), and when I don't want to do something, I admit, I cop out with, "I don't REALLY work here."
• Also, it gives me something to do in a day other than play video games and sleep and waste time online.
• And I don't have to take crappier jobs or jobs I'm completely not interested in because I have this sort of safety net. In other words, it allows me to have standards while job hunting, which I can only assume a normal person doesn't always have the luxury.
• Such as, telling my stupid temp agency bitch no everytime she offers me work for like 3 hours for a handful of dollars. It's kind of satisfying in its own way...

Cons:

• A step backwards is  step backwards. I'm not learning anything new, I'm not gaining any new experience I can hope to apply later, I'm not creating any sort of network. I'm professionally isolated.
• My parents are REALLY big bitches on occassion. The yelling and mood swings are a little much to deal with every day ALL day.
• The things I do here stress me out to a maximum, more so than another job. With another job I'd be allowed the distance of knowing that it's a business. It runs itself, isn't dependant on me, my life is relatively untouched. Here? The things I'm doing DIRECTLY affect not only my life but my entire family's life. If a deal falls through here I see the repercussions on our groceries that week, or on utilities being shut down.
• I think I've grown complacent. I've grown disgustingly satisfied at being static...
• I don't have the pride or the sense of accomplishment from having a REAL job.

Another thing to note, I've actually grown REALLY discouraged and don't send out as many resumes as I used to... Ok, I'll be honest, I haven't sent out any. It's tiring though! Writing and rewriting and proofing cover letters, sifting through ads, determining what I'll compromise on or not. It's wearing down on me. And I know you aren't supposed to take breaks, but god, I feel so dismal.

It's this weird mediocre depression where I'm not exactly SAD or self pitying... I'm just really lackluster. I have no motivation to do anything, I have no energy to complete things. I just want to sit and sleep and waste away time until something forces me to wake up. I don't want to die or anything melodramatic. I just feel really really... Tired. Tired of the day to day, tired of morning to morning. I'm tired of being so in the middle. I'm fed up. I am unhappy yet I'm too unhappy and too powerless to change anything TO make me happy which bothers me even more.

I've been like this for 3 months with no end in sight, according to the latest economic reports.

What am I supposed to do?