And What Experience Have You Had that Applies to this Position?

Erhm... It's one o'clock and I have to be up at 7 tomorrow... Yet I'm still messing around the internet. I sucks.

I feel like this blog has run its course, I don't update it ever I don't even like updating, and almost all my thoughts feel inappropriate....

Tomorrow I have an interview at a law firm... I hope it goes well, obviously, but I won't put all my eggs in the same damn basket. (ker-sigh) job hunting is so.... trying. It's like I'm at level 4 depressed about it (1 being the worst?) and I don't want to get any worse and things aren't getting better and it's just so.... so... not only helpless frustration but... so unchanging. It isn't like you get a progress report or you know what level you're at and what you need to get the job. It's like an ebay star, you need a certain amount of points to get the damn star. And so because you know how many points you need you're more willing to hang out "ok, 6 more positive reviews and I have the yellow star!" Finding a job is just wandering in the dark looking for a light switch and the walls change position every 10 seconds. There's no one there telling you "hot, hot... Hotter, hotter, SUPER hot!" like when you're a kid. It's just aimless and progressionless absolutely unchanging undirected waiting. If I have an interview does that mean I'm closer to getting a job? No, because until I get the job it's all square 1. God... I'm so sick of square 1.

I mean, how many times should I change my resume and take new approaches on cover letters? How many interview outfits until someone picks me? I mean, I shined my shoes tonight! SHINED THEM! BY HAND! I shined my fucking shoes. I just want someone, practically anyone at this point, to say, "Hey Sydney, look at all this experience you have! and wow! a college degree? Awesome!! I think you're great and I pick you. I want you. You're the one." Is that really so hard?! Is that REALLY so hard?!???

Or at least I'd like to know that I was somehow on my way. That I'm not treadmilling. I'm going somewhere. Yea, That'd be nice...