The Tide is High

Maybe i never meant to ruin them. maybe i never meant to fail. Maybe i never wanted to dissapoint.

But i did. I did and i do and it probably won't ever stop.

Maybe i was the one worth milk and sugar and no one ever saw it. Maybe i had the ability to be everything i wanted to be before I was ruined.

Maybe i'm ruined. maybe i'm temple walls thrown down and alters burnt out. Maybe all this time i was golden and i only looked everywhere else for it. Maybe all this time i was golden and i never knew it. Maybe all this time all i wanted was for you to see how golden i could be.

Time passes and life happens and we all negatively affect one another. Like arms amputated. She got it to a tee. I wonder if she has both of hers still.

I wonder if i ever had any at all. When is a good time? never. just never.

I wonder if you know my name come bedtime. I wonder if he masterbates and thinks of me as he cums.

Sometimes i fantasize about the story of O. the devotion there. And i wish you could want me enough to consume me. to consume me like that.