Keep Dreaming

House hunting is hard, complicated, and irritating. My whole living situation is pretty much all of those right now too.

I'm sick or something like it at least 2 days of the week. And I try to blame it on my period but apparently that isn't a good excuse for the rest of the 3 weeks in every month. I guess that means 1) i'm unhealthy 2) i'm too stressed out or 3) i need more sleep.

There aren't enough hours in a day for me to sleep as much as I want. I want to sleep in till 12. Take an hour nap at 2. and then a 2 hour nap at 7. and then i want to go to bed and 3 in the morning. That'd be my dream life schedule. And while I'm talking about my dream life...

I want to write in front of a window every morning. I'd like to sit in the sun and be warm and happy till my head hurts. And I want to eat everything I just so happen to crave as much as I want. I want to buy a lot of things... clothes, furniture, shoes, books... I want to buy everything. And I want to have a home. And I want to travel. I want to see the world and get a little taste of everything. I want to be so heartfull that it inspires people. I want the ability to allow myself to be passionate about the things I believe in. And to share that with the world. I want to know all of the constellations. I want to have the worlds most comfortable bed. And room. And I want to have a lot of sex. lol. maybe that was inappropriate.

And on a much more negative side... I want to never have to come to work here. or see them. I'm 1,000 x's sick of 70% of my family.

Back to the grind of the everyday and the wonderful disrespect showered upon me by my relatives.