And It's You

I am happy.

I mean, i have my emotional moments still. but for the most part: i'm happy.

completely wonderfully deliriously happy.

I have awesome friends. no contest.

I have no drama. (not really anyways.)

And i'm absolutely completely wonderfully deliriously happily in love.

And that's enough for me right now. Everyone says i'm being ridiculous. That i should give it up already or that i'm investing too much into things too quickly or whatever. That maybe i'm pulhing things from sky castles or happy memories or this pleasent gap called my ass.

And i am. i know that deep down as much as i don't want to admit it.

But for right now... I really need to be happy. I need to wake up each morning and not mind it too much. I need to keep my head up and the work rolling. I need to be ok right now.

And if that means i'm going to allow myself to hopelessly love adam then so be it. So what if he never sends message or email. or that he doesn't call. that he probably never thinks of me. that he's going to start moving on too.

That's ok. i want him to be happy too. and he's going to do whatever he needs to to be happy.

But for right now the only thing really pulling me through is Adolfo (unwaveringly)

and sometimes the knowledge that you have my heart.

I smile to myself about it all day. i think of you and smile.

and that's what i need.

so everyone who thinks it's wrong can try and find somethign better for me.

They aren't going to Find it.