You All Know You're Jealous

First post of the day:

::megasigh:: he so called me. he called me. he called me.

:sigh:

i'm such a silly girl thing. i'm so excited that i don't eve have my glasses on.

that and i'm freezing my ass off.

god! i don't even knowwhat we talked about! ew. next time i'm so going stalker on his ass and recording the conversation. LOL. no really.

he said he'd call me again. so yay for that?

PS perfect timing. i regret nothing. yea. take that.

i'm lying. i'm going to wake up one day and realize i fucked up a good chance with a really great guy for someone who might not ever love me agian. AWESOME.

i don't care much for that anymore. the fact that he might not loveme back.

the way i figure it... I Love Him. And that enough for me.


ew. and i SO spilled the beans. i'm ashamed. he says "so tell me about this new guy you're dating?"and me being who i am, which is a complete and total dolt i say "oh. well we're not"

"you're not dating anymore? why? what happened?" and i i just COMPLETELY blurt out in half a breathe : "yeawellthethingisirealizedi'mstillinlovewithyousoiwaslikeyea?no.andsowe'renot. but that's besides the points. ADOLFO'SBEENREALLYGOOD!"

and theni breathed. and talked abotu adolfo's new shirt. he allowed for this changeof subject. THANK GOD.

when i first heard his voice i was so happy i almost cried. ALMOST. didn't. i will when i go tak ea shower.

AND NEXT WEEK ON DAYS OF OUR SYDNEY:

we'll count all the ways we canoverthink and over feel into a 10 minute phone call.


ps. we all know i am.