I'm jealous.I'm jealous.I'm jealous.I'm jealous.I'm jealous.I'm jealous.I'm jealous.I'm jealous.I'm jealous.I'm jealous.I'm jealous.I'm jealous.I'm jealous.I'm jealous.I'm jealous.I'm jealous.I'm jealous.
I, Sydney Tan, am (which doesn't happen that often) confessedly jealous.
Jealous.
Stupid girls with their stupid hair and stupid pretty smiles. Stupid girls with stupid arms and stupistupidstupid happy looks. Stupid girls being everything i'm not except i'm stupid too. stupid stupid. stupid. stupid.
Stupid hope. and stupid jealousy. stupid heart. and stupid dissapointment.
Stupid girls with stupid names and stupid everythings.
Stupid girls who probably fall for your sensitivity and light colored eyes. and your hair. and your perfect body. and your godforsakingly cute dimples. stupid stupid girls. stupid girls who probably don't complain about your facial hair and love the same kind of music as you. that, when you take them home, probably get along swimmingly with your friends. Stupid girls all better than me in a thousand different ways.
(sigh+ pout + sad love song = sniffle)
Stupid ___ with his nice cuddling body. and Eric's awesome everything. stupid me trying to split things up. and it not working because i love you still. godfuckingdamnit. stupid stupid stupid.
Stupid saddness and stupid love. stupid stupid love. stupid clingy feelings stupid pushing people away. stupid distance. stupid poems and stupid songs.
And i guess while i'm complaining i should add: Stupid me. stupid stupid me. for 1) being perpetually awful 2) perpetually awful to you 3) forbeing perpetually awful and pushig you away 4) being perpetually awful, pushing you away, and then sincerely hoping for you to meet someone new. and 5) having all of that be my fault.
stupid life. stupid stupid stupid life.
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