And he says "just like you said it would"
and i know he's addressing me. and my heart goes out to him. the same hear that's been his these so many years. And i know the situation and the inappropriateness of it all...
I feel like a liar. Like someone with no heart. Like this entire time i've been doing these awful things and saying these awful thoughts and feeling these awful feelings. And they were all undeserved. inappropriate. Wrong. Just wrong.
Sometimes i forget about the seperate lives rule and in the back of my mind i think "oh, i'll just tell him later" but there is no later.
he no longer addresses me.
I shouldn't care, shouldn't mind. I've a new 'he' now. full of jealousy and history and sweet thoughts.
"just like you said i would." over and over it plays in my mind. you remember me. you think of me. maybe once you took me to heart. maybe now you still do.
And that's enough. just like you said it would be.
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