Something Missing

To mirror a previous list-

The Only things that excite me anymore:
1. the thought of buying furniture
2.
3.
4.
5.

Things that cause undue stress:
1. Chile
2. Friends / Adam
3. Family
4. Work
5. School
6. My own depression

Things that cause me saddness:
1. The monotony
2. every day class
3. my own demands
4. the piles of paper
6. my family

Because

I've given up on the chances of anything or anyone ever making me happy.

The only people that I don't hold at a distance are the ones that hurt me the most. I'm forgetting what everyone has ever told me about family. or about love. And I'm forgetting that I ever wanted more from you.

One day I'll leave all of this behind. and everyone will regret that they didn't hold on when they had a chance.

I have discovered so many new lows.